My good friend had her third child yesterday. It was a boy and so she now has three boys. This is one of the girlfriends that I posted about (oh, about 9 months ago) that started trying AFTER me and got pregnant right away. Again, yesterday, she gave birth and again, I am still trying to get pregnant.
Anyway, I went to visit them in the hospital today. I mean, hey, what am I supposed to do? It's not her fault that we can't get pregnant. And she's a good friend. And she would visit me if I was in her place (ha! as if.). And as much as I was dreading going to see him, I was also dying to hold him. I mean, what is better than a newborn baby?? Pretty much nothing. Or maybe I'm just in to torturing myself? At any rate, I did really well with the visit. He is so dang sweet that you could help but smile and stare. I was fine.
Then I left and I was not so fine.
I am just so jealous even though I know that it is wrong to feel that way. Even though I know she is going home with a newborn to a four year old and a one and a half year old and chaos is sure to ensue. Even though I know she will not be sleeping for the next three or more months and that she is sore and her nippples are already killing her. Even though I know her life is far from ideal - I am SO jealous.
I can't help it.
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I know. Let yourself be jealous. It's the only thing you can do. Give yourself a break and allow yourself that. You are a good friend and you don't owe anyone anything, except yourself. Someday it will be you, though.
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