Here we go again

We did decide to start another IUI cycle this time. I went in on Monday (CD3) for my baseline u/s and all looked good. Same protocol as last time, Clomid for CD3-7 and another u/s on CD11. We did decide to stick with our local clinic and doctor. Actually, DH was the one who was all for it and I just decided that I didn't care. It is SO much easier schedule-wise and I am to the point where I am not sure it matters. I kind of figure that IUI hasn't worked for us thus far, will it ever? The chances are pretty slim and I know that. I know that IVF is our best option at this point but again, we're just not going to go there. I did ask again (I have no idea why I feel compelled to ask this EVERY time) if there was any thing we should be trying or doing different with IUI and of course, the answer is no. It's this or IVF.

I'm just pretty numb this time around. Isn't it funny how each cycle brings different emotions? I am not going to throw myself into it this time, in hopes of not being so disappointed. If I think too much about IF then I just get SO angry and I am not in the mood to deal with all that anger right now. I am just going with the flow and doing my best to ignore the fact that getting pregnant is such a huge and ridiculous challenge for us.