Still here, still not pregnant

Sorry that I've been MIA but I've had a lot going on and also have been ignoring IF as much as possible.

First, I got a promotion at work! Yay! This is something that I have been seeking for a long time and truly had pretty much given up any hope of it happening. Then, unexpectedly - it did. Life is weird that way and I've been trying to use that situation to put other parts of my life into perspective - but I'll get into that some other time. The bottom line with the promo - more money. More money makes the costs of IF treatments a little bit easier to swallow. I guess.

Second, I hosted Thanksgiving at our house. It was a good time and nice to hang out with family but it was also a lot of work! I took the day off before to clean and prepare and then spend the entire day after cleaning once again for my sister's baby shower which was the Sunday after T-day.

Third, my sister's baby shower. Yes, because I love to torture myself, I was the host. Actually, I didn't have too much of a choice as she not so much as asked me but told me that she wanted me to be the host. So, I was. I did pretty well, all things considered. I invited my best friend and made sure I always had eye contact with her so that I could let her know that I hated every minute of it. At any rate, having my BF there made everything more bearable. And as far as she goes...I have not heard an inkling of pregnancy from her. But I'm guess she is - or just about to find out. Gulp.

Fourth, I had a pelvic laporascopy. My doctor decided to go ahead with this to rule out any unknowns with me - cysts, scarring, endo, blocked tubes, etc. Guess what? Everything checked out perfectly. Yet another test that I aced. I don't know how I feel about that either. I mean on one hand, I am so glad that there is nothing wrong with me and we do not have another obstacle to face. On the other hand, I was hoping for some solid reason why we weren't pregnant - something they could FIX. Not so much.

We really, truly are faced with Male Factor IF due to low morphology. It seems so weird to me that his stupid low morph is what has kept us from getting pregnant for over TWO years. Especially considering there has been at least one egg, sometimes more every single cycle of that two years. Crazy when you think of all the people out there who get pregnant without even remotely trying. Like my sister.

The lap went pretty well and wasn't as painful as I feared it would be. Part of that, I'm sure, is because my doctor didn't have to do much work in there. Everything looked great so she just poked around a bit and flushed out my tubes (which were not blocked) and closed me up. I was only out for about an hour. The procedure was only on Tuesday so I am still sore and tired. My belly button incision is bothering me the most because it is always rubbing against the waistline of my pants so matter what I do. The gas bubbles that travel up to my neck and shoulders aren't much fun either. But overall, I'm fine and it wasn't bad at all.

We're taking a couple weeks off of TTC. Well, technically, I am on CD 24 and I'm not really sure if I'll get a real period now or not? If I do stay on schedule, our next chance at TTC would be over Christmas Eve and Day...hmmm....maybe a Christmas miracle? LOL. Yeah right. Once I see if my cycle is still on track and I make some pretty big payments to our RE, we are probably looking at another IUI after the first of the year. Happy 2009. Or whatever. I can't believe we are going into another year and still aren't pregnant.

In the meantime, I am going to focus on letting my body heal and enjoying the holidays with my family. Count my blessings and all that crap. :)