Control

It sure is hard to ignore TTC when I can feel ovulation. I am such a weirdo but I've always been this way (although at one time I had no idea what it was. Sigh.) So here I sit, CD14 and ovulating. Damn, I wish I didn't care. But I do. And of course, we just happened to have sex last night (DH pursued me or wouldn't have happened) so now I caught myself analysing timing and I do NOT want to do that right now. But it's hard not to, you know? It's what I've done for the last 22 months, actually longer, and when I can so obviously feel myself ovulating it is impossible to ignore. No fair!

In other news, I am officially watching what I eat. I hesitate saying diet because I don't really believe in them. I am just paying attention to how many calories I am eating and also not eating any more "crap" because I was getting really good at that. When I am feeling sorry for myself, I eat. I'd love to get back into running (I talk about this way too often without doing anything about it) but I have a little trouble finding the time. I think I'll make this a priority after this week. I'm wrapping up a huge project at work and my time will be more my own after the 30th.

Also, once this work situation slows down I am going to take a day (or two) off of work and clean and organize my house from top to bottom. I'm talking closets, getting rid of stuff, washing windows and the like. Our house could use a big overhaul, it hasn't been done in quite some time. There are also a few projects that I've been putting off, like hanging pictures, getting a new mirror for Keegan's bathroom, moving some of his toys around and packing a lot of old ones away.

I need to bring more control back to my life. That is my new focus.