Yup, that makes me one cycle away from TWO YEARS of TTC #2. I cannot believe this is happening to us.
So, I got my period on the day of my sister's wedding in July and now I got my period on my sister's wedding reception on Saturday. Quite fitting, don't you think? Especially considering she is five months pregnant with an unplanned pregnancy while taking the pill? How's that for irony?
Speaking of my sister...we found out on Friday that she is having a girl. I bounce between excitement and the feeling of sheer hell. But please don't tell her that. As far as she is concerned, I am over the moon with both her pregnancy and the fact that she's having a girl. I spent all day Friday shopping with her and buying a ton of itty-bitty pink pieces of clothing. And I did it all with a smile on my face. Because I am happy for her, I truly am. But deep down? (Or maybe not so deep?) I am questioning the universe. Truly - why is this happening to me? Why?
I just keep asking why but hear nothing in response.
In other news, I was sooooo very close to calling and starting a new IUI cycle. I had my finger on the call button but I didn't do it. Two reasons: One, DH and I just started a fitness "challenge" and I figured it wouldn't hurt us to have a month of better eating, exercise and vitamins under our belt before we give IUI another shot. Two, I would have to drive back from up north from a girls weekend (with all my high school girlfriends) to do it. Not only would it be a pain in the ass and interrupt the weekend, I would also have to explain why I was leaving and I would not want to bring that into the weekend. And, we're supposed to be relaxing, drinking and having fun. Not very IUI friendly timing. Three (even though I said there were two reasons), what is one more month??
So, another natural (worthless) cycle. BUT, we will be doing IUI for sure next month. DH brought it up and when I told him I'd like to wait a month he was okay with it. We are actually both on the same page - for a change.
I'm thinking of signing up for a yoga class. It's called Relax and Renue with Yoga. Sounds like a good one for me, huh?
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Easier said than done I know, but you listed some very good points for waiting, so go into this month with no expectations. Try to just put it right out of your mind. Focus on you, feeling better, having fun, finding what else makes Angie tick. Trust me, I do know that is not easy to do, especially when the only one thing you truly want eludes you. I do think the yoga class sounds like a great idea.
Have fun at the wedding reception.
*hugs*
p.s. you are a great sis to your sis.
Hey Angie! Sorry I've been away from commenting so long. I've been following along with you. I hope you come back and update us soon; I've been thinking of you.
I started a yoga class too--to help me relax. Actually, it was a four-session intro class, and the four sessions are over, and now I am again essentially unmotivated to drag myself back. I really liked it, but parking was a bitch.
I think skipping a cycle to do the things you need to do is probably one of the best things you can do for yourself right now. I hope it has proven fun and relaxing, at least a little bit, so far. I think it's important to, you know, try and live the rest of your life while going through this. It's really fucking hard, I know, but I believe it's a good idea.
Sorry for the swearing. So how's it been going these last couple of weeks?
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